Officially in the LR. Aircond kuat, lega sungguh perasaan. Guess what, dari dalam wad tadi perkara pertama yang aku nak buat sejurus tiba di LR adalah...EPIDURAL. Yes I might sounded crazy sebab nak mintak epidural. Tapi sakit contraction tu buat aku berfikir separa waras. Sebab aku rasa aku dah tak tahan. Perasaan dia macam nak cabut pinggang kebawah, letak tepi, kasi gua rest kejap. Tapi MANA BOLEH kau cabut pinggang. Mahu pengsan midwives semua nanti.
I was in Room 5(kot?hilang ingatan dah HAHA). Suami kena tunggu luar sekejap sementara nurse selesaikan urusan persiapan. Water drip and all. Dalam 5 minit cenggitu, then suami masuk untuk teman. My husband brought a bottle of water into the room, bimbang isteri dehydrated sewaktu proses kelahiran. Alhamdulillah dikurniakan suami yang tenang. I was in pain but he remains calm.
Doktor bertugas check bukaan, sambil tu aku dalam berani berani takut tanya tentang epidural.
'Nanti saya check dulu ya puan.'
'Oh puan, bukaan dah 6 cm ni.Dah tak boleh epi, kalau tak nanti baby keluar tak nangis.'
'Oh hati bertenanglah, oh pinggang perut dan organ berkaitan bertabahlah. There's nothing we can doooooooo.' Kataku di dalam hati.
'Ada ubat tahan sakit lain tak doktor? Saya sakit sangat ni.'
And the doctor showed me the mask on the right side of the bed. TOPENG GAS. I was delighted.
'Puan, sedut bila sakit je OK. Kalau tak sakit jangan sedut. Sebab gas ni buat puan mengantuk. Sedut ikut hidung, lepas ikut mulut OK.'
Officially on gas. And the contractions were getting stronger. I was half awake. But the pains were still there. Rasa sakit tapi sebab mamai, so sakitnya macam erm ok sakit erm ok ngantok. Husband was on my right side, the CTG machine was on my left.
Then it came - contractions yang membuatkan kita rasa nak teran. Luckily I DID NOT experienced anything like 'puan jangan teran ea, cuba tahan dulu.' Sebab sakitnya memang buat kita rasa nak teran. I was in my la-la land when suddenly the midwife said 'Cuba push puan.'
I pushed. Following the midwife's instructions. But then maybe its not the time yet. Kembali mengiring sebelah kiri. 'Puan kalau rasa nak teran, just teran je OK. Sekejap lagi kita check semula.'
While 'enjoying' the highest-level-of-contractions, I prayed hard for the baby to come out smoothly. It reminded me of my mother; her first 3 children were born at home while the next 3 were born at hospital. I was born at home, with the presence of Bidan. TOTALLY-DRUGS-FREE. My mother is a superwoman.
Suddenly few midwives entered the room, and few nurses too. It's showtime. I was lucky my husband was the only guy in the room.
Actually my mind flew away once, while pushing (I was on drugs, remember). I was not 100% in the labour room;my body was there but not my mind. Sounds weird though but maybe thats what drugs do. All my happy moments played in front of my eyes and then suddenly POOFS! What are these people doing? Where am I? Why they're asking me to push?
Just realized that I was in labour. Pushed harder few times then the baby was out. Alhamdulillah 👶🏻
They put Baby Z on me for few seconds and then they took her for cleaning. Husband went out since I need to be stitched (sounds so scary but believe me this is nothing compared to the contraction pains). Penat tapi sempat berborak dengan tukang jahit engkooo.
Alhamdulillah it was a smooth delivery, Alhamdulillah Allah ease everything for me. Alhamdulillah for this beautiful gift to me and husband. Thank you Allah.
Raya tahun lepas, bujang. Raya tahun ni terus bertiga. Alhamdulillah :)
Habis pantang masa Hari Raya Pertama (Hari ke-45). Makan bersungguh-sungguh OK HAHAHAHA.
Nur Zara Khairina, turning 3-months-old in few days time ❤️❤️❤️
I am back to school tomorrow! Beratnya rasa hati, Allah je yang tahu. Semoga Zara behave well. Jangan menangis banyak nanti penat. Zara kecik lagi tak payah fikir apa-apa OK. Minum susu, main, tidur. Waktu baby lah waktu paling best tau HEHEHE.